I started this new therapy. One that I have wanted to try for a long time. DBT…Dialectical Behavioral Therapy. It is a pretty extensive therapy and its quite the commitment. Seeing as it is once weekly individual therapy and a skills group lasting for two hours. This is a commitment for a whole year! I had to have surgery recently and will be out of work for two months, so I figured now was a good time to try it. The first zoom group I joined the lesson taught was in the mindfulness module. The homework was to recognize when your emotional mind wanted to take over and try to use one of the mindfulness skills taught in group. Then to fill out the worksheet on the details. Just within a few days I kept recognizing situations where I would get triggered. Situations in which my emotional mind wanted to take over. I wouldn’t be using any facts and I would just be conjuring up the most hurtful fucking images in my mind. Believe them to be true and my body would react. My stomach would be in knots and my hips would be tense. This being especially uncomfortable because I am recovering from hip surgery. I started to feel my body really reacting to these things I was thinking. I try to ground myself, which is another skill. I feel the fabric of the steering wheel, I feel the heated seat on my butt, oh i’m distracted…wait okay now what do I hear? Already my body has taken it down a few notches. Phew…safe until next time. The name of the game is to catch your mind when it starts telling you stories. Over and over and over again. Mindfulness is such an amazing skill for recovering from trauma.
My name is Amber! I would love to use this space to talk about my journey through navigating the effects of trauma on the mind, body, and spirit. I would like to be able to share my experiences with people who might benefit from hearing my story. The struggles and the triumphs. I’d like to share what I have found helpful and healing along the way.